How to waste a weekend...

So Mary and I didn't end up going to Nashville, her Uncle had a heart attack and was rushed to the hospital for surgery and her Mom wanted her to go with her to visit and stuff. So, I can sympathize but it sucks that our plans get screwed up so often. So I picked up Metal Gear Solid 4 for my PS3, got it around 1 or so on Saturday and had it beat by 7 pm sunday. It's a great game and I will definitely play through it again. I beat it in 17ish hours, so that's how you waste a weekend.

A little about the game...

The cutscenes were long but very well done so I forgive them, the graphics blew me away (the opening cinematic transitions right into gameplay...)the gameplay engine and the cinematic engine are the same...and incredible. You aren't limited to just sneaking, though near the end of the game you really just have too or you'll wind up hearing, "Snake? SNAKE?! SNAAAAAAAAAAAAKKKKEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!" a lot. I played it on the normal difficulty and it really wasn't all that hard since you can now buy guns and ammo at pretty much any point in the game from the pause menu. The game explains it and I GUESS it makes since how you can buy bullets and grenades whenever, but you can't buy anything for your health so I guess that makes up for it.

All in all I had a great time with MGS4, the story was the easiest to follow out of the ones i've played (MGS, MGS2) and EVERYTHING was explained in a simple easy to follow way.

I miss you sleep...

I have been going to be rather early lately, usually hitting the hay around 11 or so but these past few days I have been waking up at like 5 and 6 in the morning. Now, I don't mind waking up like that during the week because I can just go to work a little early...but come on! Saturday morning at 6 isn't much fun. I guess I just haven't been sleeping well, I've had a lot on my mind and when I'm stressed I can't just sleep it off. 

I'm heading to Nashville today, hopefully getting out of town will help clear my mind.

Starting over...

Most of my close friends know that Mary and I have seperated, and while being I struggle every day trying to do what I think is right this is still the hardest thing I've ever had to go through. My life hasn't been some big cake walk, and while I put up a good front I struggle everyday to make it to the next. It's not easy losing the person you care most about in your life, and while we are still close friends (and hopefully will remain close) it will never be the same...of course, I never expect it to be back to the way things were.

While I will never quit loving Mary and no one could ever fill in exactly the space that she left in my heart, I am excited about going back to school and hopefully meeting new people. A new major, a new haircut, and a new outlook on the world. I am not the same person I was 3 months ago, and won't be the same person tomorrow as I am today. I just want to pick up the pieces of what's left and start over.

Also, may be going to Las Vegas week after next. I just need to get away, I guess that's about as far as I can get for under a grand. If anyone wants to go, let me know and you can tag along.

Thanks to everyone that has helped me through this hard time. Ben, you're my best friend, always have been...always will be. Gale, Mike, John Boots, Chet, Kent, Bill, Kara